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My opinion at the thread where it's happening would pull it further off-topic, I think.
I'll set aside any opinions I have of the participants' previous posts, and just say that I'm pretty sure you believe God put you there, right? And you've got to walk that lonesome valley, and no one can go it for you, and all that "Reverend Mr. Black" imagery? (One of my dad's favorite songs, may he rest in peace.) So the path on which you must go right now might be beyond your immediate, or even long-term control in a lot of ways.
But no one's forcing you to be the store's resident Squidward Tentacles. You can be Spongebob, too, if you want. He certainly has more fun. As for the rest, Res ipsa loquitor, yeah?