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Started by smallcleanrat, May 25, 2020, 07:14:50 PM
Quote from: hmaria1609 on June 27, 2019, 07:07:43 PMDo whatever you want--I'm just the background dancer in your show!
Quote from: smallcleanrat on May 29, 2020, 11:47:05 AMWill post again with questions/comments on everyone's input here when I can think a bit more clearly.mahagonny, wish I had personal experience with ketamine to share, but unfortunately have never tried it. I have been undergoing TMS, which is another treatment that tends to be used only when many other treatment attempts have failed. PM me if you're interested in that at all.Was at a treatment this morning. Went out to the stairwell, 5 stories up, staring down at ground; complete lack of discomfort or giddiness I normally feel when looking down from a height. I told myself I would finish out the spring term before I thought anymore about suicide, but I guess I just had a heavy sad mood this morning that was hard to shake off. Called the suicide hotline, but was not able to make myself understood very well, especially regarding where I was. Should probably stick to text lines from now on. When the hotline ended the conversation and said goodbye to me I was still on that stairwell, leaning over the railing, and feeling stuck between going home or going over.After a couple of hours, feelings had drained and I just felt blank. Headed home.SO should have expected me back hours ago. Did not attempt to message me or inquire why I was away so long when I got back. Am not sharing the experience with him as I suspect it will do no good for either of us.
Quote from: polly_mer on May 29, 2020, 12:38:29 PMHi, smallcleanrat,I'm glad you went home and then wrote to us.Keep on reaching out for the help you need.
Quote from: Morden on May 31, 2020, 05:34:54 PMThat's interesting. Have you told your doctor about this effect?
Quote from: mahagonny on May 31, 2020, 05:50:56 PMQuote from: Morden on May 31, 2020, 05:34:54 PMThat's interesting. Have you told your doctor about this effect?Not as yet. But I do not have a psychiatrist at this time. My zoloft prescribing was taken over a couple years ago by my GP.
Quote from: Morden on June 01, 2020, 07:37:58 AMHi mahagonny, I'm glad you're getting some relief and hope the effect continues. I saw your earlier posts about ketamine. I don't know anyone who has taken it as a supervised therapy for depression. I do know someone who used it a lot and eventually things spiralled out of control for him, but that can be an issue with many substances.
QuoteThen got an email saying sorry she couldn't call but she was totally preoccupied with quals prep. Understandable. Just feeling...I don't know...insignificant. Would have felt ok if she had taken 10 seconds to send a message saying "Slammed with work; can we postpone our phone chat to another day?" Or something like that. Something to let me know she remembered I exist.Same day I got that email my psychiatrist missed our appointment. He has a habit of not writing things down right away, and sometimes doesn't realize we had agreed to meet. Spent half an hour staring at a blank Zoom meeting window.